Reality Check

You know whenever I try to tell someone that I’m writing a novel I become embarrassed. Usually they respond happily and say they can’t wait to see it finished, especially when I tell them about what the plot is. But some raise their eyebrows and always seem to say the same words. ‘Oh really?’ Yes really! It’s not that hard to believe. I won’t say what it’s about yet, but I’ve realised that writing about real life isn’t as easy as I thought it would be.
The book is fiction but there are parts that have to regulate to an ordinary life. And they’re probably the hardest parts to write. I don’t know why that is. I, like everyone else, lives an ordinary life. You think it would just roll off my mind and onto the page.
After all that’s what I do on here. Write about life. It’s been an interesting week. Looks like I’ll be going back to work part time at the nursery for a little while to earn myself some dosh. See a couple of the girls. But, I feel a little awkward. It seems like I’m going backwards. I was supposed to leave there to move forward. But you know what I found out when I went back there, is that it didn’t make much of a difference. I could have still grown up well there I think.
Anyway, I’ve stayed par to the course. I’m still at college. I was supposed to be doing coursework this week and I have done sod all. It’s due in soon and I have nothing left to give or to write about. I don’t believe in writers block, but it seems like I’m suffering with a lack of enthusiasm.
To top that off I still have no idea what to write about in this blog. But, I think I’ll call it something like ‘A Life In Progress…’ Or ‘Late developer.’ Or maybe even ‘Just Slow... Really Slow.’ It seems like I’ve been living in my comfort zones for too long, and its time to start growing up a bit. But, I don’t plan to make my life a boring one. I want a life of fun, mistakes, heartache, and love. So I think the only person now who stops me from actually achieving it is me.
But I can hopefully keep a fraction in my writing. We’ll see how it goes from here.